Now I See Clearly
As a blessed empty nester, I’m happy to announce—I finally have my own bathroom! I no longer have to wait my turn for a shower, and no one gets into my make-up.
It was an exciting day when I realized the last Pierce child was married and total control belonged to me.
I polished the counter top. I bought new towels. I arranged two cute little baskets to the left of the sink that could neatly hold my cosmetics. I lined up my hairbrushes and curling iron to the right. Then I stood back and smiled as I turned on my Scentsy and dropped in a few lavender scented wax cubes.
Life as an empty nester with my own organized bathroom counter tops was good.
For a while, life went on as usual. Work. Grandma time. Writing.
Lather.
Rinse.
Repeat.
Then one day, my husband stepped into my “Necessary Room.”
“Wow, how can you even see in here?”
“What’s the problem? I see just fine.”
“Half of your vanity lights are out,” he said.
I shrugged and scurried off to work without another thought of my low-lit mirror.
That evening I began my nightly attempt at beauty control and flipped on the light.
Oh. My.
My sweet husband had replaced the burned out bulbs while I was away. Now I could see what I’d been missing:
Laugh lines and spots.
Wrinkles and puffs.
And my sparkly clean counter top? Speckled with toothpaste and make up.
Oh. My.
Those sneaky round bulbs had burned out slowly and strategically. One by one. So slowly, in fact, I hadn’t even noticed my world had gotten dimmer.
I hadn’t noticed a line here and a crease there on my empty nester face. Oh, and my neck. Let’s not even talk about my neck.
The next morning I faced the well-lit mirror again. It was still quite shocking.
As I drove to work that day, I thought about the woman in the mirror. So many changes in such a short amount of time.
Then God whispered in my unsuspecting ear. “You’re just like your bathroom.”
“Excuse me? What?”
“Yes. You are. You see, just like you didn’t notice the lights that burned out one by one, you also don’t seem to notice how often you start your day without me.”
My heart sank at the truth of His words.
“Without time with me, you cannot see clearly. You think everything is just fine. But it is not.”
Tears pooled in the corners of my eyes.
“Without time with me, you misunderstand others. You have thoughts you shouldn’t. You don’t talk about me with your friends. You forget me.”
Remorse filled my heart.
“I’m sorry, Lord. I’m so sorry.”
“I love you and long for time with you. Sit with me awhile.”
Realizing my pitiful condition reminded me of 1 John 1:5-7 and the importance of walking in His light. Can I honestly say I have fellowship with God if I choose the darkness of busyness over the light of spending time in his truth?
I opened my Bible to the passage and read the familiar words again. "God is light, and there is absolutely no darkness in Him. If we say we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we are lying and we are not practicing the truth. But if we walk in the light as He Himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin" (HCSB).
Conviction ran through me as I faced the truth of my early morning choices in recent weeks. Choosing to tackle the list of “things to do” instead of making fellowship with my Jesus a priority had taken its toll.
In view of God’s revealing words to me, I’ve been quite tempted to reach up and give a few of those truth-telling bulbs a twist to hush them up.
But you know what? I think I’ll leave them alone. I’ll face the truth each morning. I’ll not hide from the creases and lines they reveal.
As they show me what’s on the outside, I’ll also let them remind me of what’s most important—the Truth that tells me to “Come. Sit awhile with me.”
Thank you, Lord, for showing me the disarray of my heart when I neglect my time with you.
Now, where did I put that Crepe Erase?
Shelley is a Director of Preschool and Children’s Ministries and a grandma. She’s the author of The Crumberry Chronicles, a middle grade speculative fiction series which includes The Wish I Wished Last Night and Battle Buddies. Shelley’s first nonfiction book, Sweet Moments, Insight and Encouragement for the Pastor’s Wife, released March 2019. Her first children’s picture book, I Know What Grandma Does While I’m Napping, released June, 2019. Shelley’s work in progress is Volume 3 in the Crumberry series.
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Like Shelley, I too have married a pastor, am a mom & grandma. This devotional couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. Thank you for this relatable reminder!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you stopped by, Holly. Isn't the Lord wonderful to send us just what we need at just the right time? Blessings to you!
DeleteHello, fellow pastor's wife, mom & grandma! I'm so glad the devotion was timely. I love the way He loves us! Blessings to your day!
DeleteYou found the secret Ms. Shelley. Our greatest beauty is found within us, enhanced as we become more like Christ with each passing day. I too look forward to the day when I no longer look in the mirror and see an extra long forehead, hairy ears, a sagging neck and jowls, bit I see the beautiful vessel God has turned me into; just as He's doing with you ma'am. God's blessings.
ReplyDeleteAmen and amen, Mr. JD!
DeleteHow timely! I can get too busy, too tired and sometimes, I don't want to face what He is telling me. What I forget in my rebellion is that He only intends good for me and it is that very rebellion He wants to clean out of me. Thank you . I will think of this every time I turn on the bathroom light! :)
ReplyDeleteWow, you have nailed it, Patty. God's correction is always for our good. THanks for chiming in today:)
DeleteHi, Patty. I'm always amazed at His gentle voice that calls back into fellowship with Him. Be blessed!
ReplyDeleteHi Shelley, Like Lori, you and I met at BRMCWC several years back. Appreciate today's post, especially "Choosing to tackle the list of “things to do” instead of making fellowship with my Jesus a priority had taken its toll."
ReplyDeleteHi, Sandy. It really is too easy to jump into that list. Isn't it wonderful--God is patient with us!
DeleteHI Sandy!! THanks for stopping by and adding your thoughts to the conversation.
DeleteWhat a wonderful message and timely, too! Am I focusing on God or myself? Thank you for the reminder to focus on Him first, always. :-)
ReplyDeleteAmen, Melissa. A good reminder every day.
DeleteBlessings, Melissa <3
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